I know sometimes it’s easier to just put up with your PTSD rather than make the effort to overcome it. After all, some of the symptoms, such as lack of trust and unwanted memories, make it hard to fight back. It may seem like you can’t win when you don’t have control over what’s happening. Why even make the effort to heal? To your family, this may not seem like a difficult question to answer; they are living the nightmare right along with you.
Having PTSD doesn’t mean you live in a void and you’re the only one affected by it. Those you love most are right in the trenches with you. Again, I have to wonder why is it we hurt those who are closest to us the most? There are so many answers: it’s easiest, they owe it to us, they are there, etc. But is this what you really want? Can you look back to why you chose that particular person to be your spouse in the first place, to where you remember the desire to make the relationship permanent? Do you want to recover those times? Well, in order to do that, you’re going to have to face the devil. You’re going to have to begin to deal with your PTSD.
And just how is that accomplished? It starts by finding a safe place where you can allow yourself to remember the very things you want most to forget. Only then will you be able to let go enough to move on. It’s not easy. It won’t be an overnight fix. But it is possible to do.
Take a chance today by going to one of the VA’s PTSD classes. Or, talk to a trusted friend about your experiences. Look into alternative therapies, new medications to treat PTSD, anything to make that first step. As the old saying goes, “The only way out is through.” Yes, it’s a trip that will take time…isn’t it about time you got started? Bon Voyage!